Changes Beyond Belief

To say that my neglect for this blog has been abysmal would be a great, great understatement.

I have realized that in the past, having a blog has been something I’ve really enjoyed. The reason for that? I’m not quite sure. It’s not like I ever had some booming success with my blog. I didn’t have much interaction, other than an occasional comment here and there. In high school it was a venue for me to share funny stories, post pictures, and scribe some vague, angsty thoughts that brewed from hormones and high school.

Since I began college, it hasn’t been as consistent, and I almost feel I’ve given into an idea that what I’m writing isn’t marketable. Who really cares what I’m saying? What is  my niche? Isn’t this just like all of the other zoobie blogs that is relatively unimpressive and unoriginal?

Maybe. But, I guess those aren’t the reasons I blogged for in the past, and I may have lost sight of that.

Even though in school it’s awful and stressful and time consuming, writing is something I actually enjoy. I have lists and lists of things that I could do better in my writing when it comes to research papers and press releases. However, Having a space where I can just express ideas, tell stories, and record experiences is healthy and helpful for me.

There’ll be typos. Fragmented sentences for sure. But, considering the thought to start blogging again has prompted my mind consistently for the past few months, I guess I’ll give in.

 

To the two people (if that) that may stumble across this, WELCOME. This is a safe place.

 

Changes Beyond Belief

And You’re On My Mind.

This is my song of the week.

 

If you don’t already know this song and you consider yourself an Imagine Dragons fan, you should know this one. It’s GRAND.

Also, I’m at the library and I started watching this video. I couldn’t get through more than 45 seconds of it without getting teary-eyed and emotional. Guys I’m just so proud of them! I can’t quite describe it. But if you felt the same way about this group of people as I do, you’d probably know. It’s really great. Way to be awesome, ID.

And You’re On My Mind.

Sunday Night Ponderings.

There’s been a lot on my mind as of late. All sorts of different emotions and all sorts of different things to be thinking about. It feels like sometimes we fail to take the time to just feel certain ways. We so quickly seek to change things and are constantly moving between one emotion to the next, especially when pertaining to negative things. I believe that there is so much potential for healing when we allow ourselves to truly BE a certain way, and FEEL different emotions. There is so much to be learned from experiences and earthly trials and woes, and I think that’s a beautiful thing.

I was talking to some friends tonight about happiness and what it means in this life. I’m not sure how we got to it but I had a very distinct realization that there is something to be said for this earthly life. I realize that the end goal is exaltation and that essentially we are just here to be able to return back to our Father in Heaven, but I actually like earthly life. President Hinckley said “Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured.” I agree with that 100%. But the peculiar thing about me is that I enjoy hard things. I guess “enjoy” is kind of a generous word. But I thrive from overcoming obstacles. I am energized by knowing I can beat a hard time. I enjoy being triumphant through a dark patch.

Along with that, there is so much good in the world. I can’t even believe it. And, since I love making lists, I am going to give you a list of a few things I’ve been loving in my world lately:

-I love the weather. Rain, snow, sunshine. Bring it on. It’s all grand.
-Rachel has a cute family and I love that they include me so much. It’s such a blessing and I don’t think they will ever realize how much it has affected me!
-I know a lot of incredible people. I’m still amazed that there could possibly be more people that are as cool as the ones I currently know. People keep surprising me.
-I am so impressed with Imagine Dragons. I went to the concert on Friday and I am so proud of them for maintaining their standards and being such an example of good in this world, especially in the music industry that can be so corrupt.
-I am leaving on a mission in exactly one month. Yes, it is terrifying. But it is also very exciting and crazy and every other emotion!
-My sisters and dad are so cool and I love hanging out with them.
-My dad is awesome and has lost 20 pounds in like two weeks. Whaaaat?! Eligible bachelor right there. 😉
-I wasn’t feeling well today and like four people came to visit me and brought me food. That is so awesome. People are good.
-I love Easter candy. Mostly Cadbury mini eggs and Reese’s eggs. I don’t even like Reese’s that much, but those little eggs are just so freakin’ good.
-I love the temple. It is such an amazing place. I’m really going to miss it for 18 months.
-Life is crazy and weird and awesome and great.

Love you kids. Thanks for being stellar.

Sunday Night Ponderings.

America.

This Friday, I’m seeing Imagine Dragons with my dad and my sisters. I am so excited, I can’t even tell you! I have watched these guys perform since they were performing for free in Provo, and I’m so proud of their success and their accomplishments over the past year. They’ve grown so much! This song of theirs is probably my favorite one they’ve written. It’s so powerful. And it’s just awesome. I hope you enjoy it!

America.

A Slight Confession.

I have a bit of a confession.

I will admit that I can, at times, be a bit of a music hipster.

What does that mean? It means that I often spend time listening to a large variety of different music and I love to support the “up and coming” genre of music because I think it’s awesome that they are trying to make it happen for themselves. That often leads to finding bands that not many people have heard of, but that I like. That also results in me becoming attached to those bands as if they’re a little stray kitten I’ve found on the side of the road and want to keep all to myself (which, by the way, would probably never happen because I kind of hate cats, but that’s beside the point).

But what happens is that somehow people discover this little stray kitten, too. They start feeding it and it keeps growing and growing and everyone just thinks it’s the best kitten ever because, well, it IS. It’s the best kitten. It’s purr is so pretty, it’s fur is so shiny, and everyone loves it. The problem is, everyone becomes obsessed with the poor thing. Before I know it they’re playing with it nonstop; they’re taking videos of the kitten, and pictures, and putting them on facebook and instagram, and they’re recording its little purr and playing it over and over and over again because they just LOVE it. It’s almost creepy, in my opinion.

But then I start to resent the kitten a little bit. I feel like its betrayed my trust. I thought what we had was special. I thought that I had found it and nurtured it and cared for it and kept it all nice to myself. The sad thing is that I still think that little kitten is just the best little thing ever, I’m just selfish and I don’t want to share it.

 

Moral of the story is that Ed Sheeran is the little kitten.
But I’m still going to his concert tomorrow. You bet I am.

A Slight Confession.